let’s eat…
4 am and i’m out of bed getting ready to pull on my work pants and head out the door… get the cart, teach the class, advise… c’mon, let’s go…. let’s eat… let’s have some time for community with one another. family meal. we all discuss the series of dishes before us.. the colors… the scents.. the aromas…. I can’t wait to try what they created, what they were responsible for, what they are proud of… they cooked for me and i’m honored. they make getting up at 4 am not so bad….
the day is upside down, my night is day and my day is night…
day is done and i can relax… one thought…for all intents i should be tired, i’ve worked a day. but i’m restless and anxious…. i check the kitchen, the fridge, the pantry… as if some how the products inside got rearranged or multiplied. no such luck…it’s too early for a glass of wine and bed…
i have one thought on my mind…
i should go to the beach… no, laundry… no, go for a walk… it’s a nice day, maybe photograph… or try to read… or keep planning the next move even if I have no idea what the outcome of the previous move is… crystal balls, fortune tellers, can you see? no, i should write…. but i can’t focus long enough to get a full thought out. i have about thirty starts to a story that got abandoned after the first sentence… i should publish that… HA.. maybe… my laptop battery is dead and won’t hold a charge and teathers me to my desk on a sunny day… i should be in a café, scribbling in my diary… sipping. something… nibbling. something… eating. something.
i still have one thought on my mind…
i should EAT….
You should keep writing my friend. I’ve read every book written by culinary professionals (Anthony B. especially) and while engaging, they got nothin on you. Eat, drink and write. You may end up surprising yourself.
November 6, 2010 at 12:59 am
Cait.. I’ve been in a negative space and haven’t been able to write… thank you for the encouragement… I’ve ben working on several pieces, but just can’t finish… I’m going to work on finishing something this weekend…
thanks!
January 21, 2011 at 5:25 pm
It’s damn hot in the kitchen my love, we know that. Apply your culinary knowledge to your writing, FIFO, when in doubt, throw it out. You got time to lean, you got time to clean (I mean that spiritually though – writing usually does it). You have a genius I abandoned – don’t give up. You are a leader and an inspiration. No regrets. Just get out there and own it. Be accountable. Be right. Be wromg. This world commands your attention. Don’t fade into the backdrop. Run your show. I know that you will not disappoint. Cook. Sing. Invent. Dance. Like your life depends on it. Because my friend, it surely does. Go get ‘em. XOXO, Cait
January 24, 2011 at 11:25 pm
you are so right… i think in these beautiful, prolific, profound words i can speak with great eloquence…. but right now i cant seem to write…. i’ve got alot going on and my space is invaded (parents home for the summer) and i just cant get there… run my show you say… i’m trying like hell to build a show to run.. like a queen honey bee in her hive…. directing workers while being sweet… so that’s my focus… i’ve been writing .. of a different sort. business writing… ick. thank you… all the while I cook. it’s all i know how to do. all i love to do…
love the encouragement… forgive the delay! you remain the red haired goddess… you should come out with us (me and sharone et al…) sometime.
xo
RE
July 19, 2011 at 9:13 pm